Tuesday, March 31, 2009
So, I'm apartment hunting and hoping to find something that won't break the bank, but that isn't a dump, either. I know-can't be done. But I'm trying to be optimistic.
Another bright note... it's finally stopped snowing after dumping 22 inches. As soon as my car is back in one piece, I just hope I won't get stuck. Plows are working hard, so should be a-ok by that time.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
So, anyway, I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop, right? I think it may soon. You see, I moved in with my boyfriend after knowing him only a month because we were so sure we were meant to be, and I didn't have money to get my own place and he wanted to take care of me. Things have changed a bit... due to my latest surgery, he saw a darker side of me as I took some of my pain out on him. It wasn't intentional... he was just the punching bag in front of me at the time. I was just basically bitching about the pain, but he took it as bitching at him. We really haven't been the same since.
No matter how many times I say "I'm sorry for taking it out on you" he just can't seem to forget about it. Like his image of me as the "loving girlfriend" has been tainted. I wish I knew how I could change this image in his mind. So frustrating thinking back on what we had and wondering if we'll ever find the same again. I just wanna rewind. If I had a clicker to just fast forward the past 6 weeks like it never happened and we could be exactly the same as before, I know we'd be that happy couple I remember.
So, if anyone has a magic clicker or a time machine out there, I'd love to talk! If not, I guess I'm just gonna have to deal.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Anyway, back to this mood I'm in. I feel kinda out of sorts lately. I have this wonderful guy who loves me and whom I love, I'm almost done with my very amicable divorce, I have a wonderful family who supports me, and I'm healing nicely from my latest back surgery. But there's just something I can't put my finger on... Maybe I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Things are just too good... It's inevitable for me to have something not right. Or, maybe I'm just imagining things... Maybe next week I'll figure it out, but for now, I'm gonna go out and celebrate the fact that my life is finally taking a turn for the better. I am still on a few good drugs, after all. Paranoia is a funny thing.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
It hurts my heart. I absolutely love this band! The lead singer has a voice to die for, but if they drown him out, what's left? So sad. It was the first time I've ever left a concert early. Only one other time have I been this disappointed after a live show... "Garbage", a band I loved in the 90s. They almost ruined concerts all together for me. I have a feeling I'll be weary in the future to see another beloved band. Too bad a few bad eggs can ruin the bunch.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna stop listening to the albums, but a little respect is lost. If you've never heard these bands check out their pages. http://halestormrocks.com/ , http://www.shinedown.com/ , http://islandrecords.com/site/artist_home.php?artist_id=301
I am glad to say that I got to meet Lizzy Hale, lead singer/guitarist for "HaleStorm" (this chick can wail) and she was so genuine and happy to meet every fan. It's these bands that make the concert experience so great! I really look forward to the day they make it big and truely believe they will!
Monday, March 16, 2009
You'd think I'd be more organized with my keepsakes, working in a photo/scrap booking shop and all. But I find little things all over that I intended to scrapbook so many times, and never found the time(or never pulled my butt away from the TV/computer screen long enough) to do.
I do hope this time I can do it right. I'm impressed already, at how I've labled boxes and done pretty well so far, but I know as I get down to the last boxes it's all gonna go out the window so I can get back to my TV/computer time. Who am I kidding... I'm a lost cause.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Do I have to be an "upstanding pillar of my community"? Or start volunteering my time at a shelter because I sometimes have spare time? Can I just be a slob sometimes? Does it make me a bad person to just lye around the house and do nothing productive?
It's actually the best day of my week when I have a day like that. I may be a bit of a social outcast, or dare I say, loser, but I'm pretty much OK with that. What am I gonna do? Go out to the bar and get hammered? Or worse, sit at home alone and get hammered? I guess I'm just realizing that life is mine to do with it what I may. And I may stay in my jammies and watch TV all day today. Sounds heavenly to me. Have a comment, please share.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
I got to watch my first episode of late night with Jimmy Fallon last night since I could sleep in a bit this morning. I was suprised how natural he was! It almost seems as if he was made for the gig. I'm excited to see more from him and am still sad at the idea of Leno leaving because Conan will never measure up in my book.
Another thing on my mind this morning, this whole time change thing. I understand it's supposed to give us more daylight, but WTH? Can't we just accept what nature gives us? What gives us the right to play with time? It seems a little like playing God to me. I mean, why must we lose an entire hour of our lives when there already are too few hours in a day?
Monday, March 9, 2009
I guess I should be happy I'm back to some sort of a schedule because since my surgery (4 weeks ago tomorrow) I've been a bit of a couch potato. I've had no "get-up-and-go" and seem to waste the day away. Maybe some discipline will do me good. Make me feel like a contributer to society once again. Wish me luck as I head back out to that mad, mad world. I have a feeling I'll need it.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
People who are just too happy for their own good:
- Progressive commercial lady
- Rachel Ray
- Kelly from "Regis and Kelly" (whatever her name is, who cares?)
- Al Roeker
- Martha Stewart
Favorite "mad" TV personalities:
- Chef Ramsey from "Hell's Kitchen" and "Kitchen Nightmares"
- Judge Millian from "The People's Court"
- Jay Leno
- Simon Cowel from "American Idol"
- Michael Moore (ok, so he's not a TV personality, but he's a great producer)
TV Personalities I can't get enough of:
- Cash Cab guy
- Mike Rowe of "Dirty Jobs"
- Craig Fergusen
- "Mythbusters" guys
TV Personalities that annoy the hell out of me:
- Drew Carey
- David Letterman
- Dr. Phil
- All of the people from zoos that bring animals on talk shows
Favorite TV Characters of all time:
- Dharma from "Dharma & Greg"
- Jack from "Will & Grace"
- Karen from "Will & Grace"
- Niles Crane from "Frasier"
- Barney from "How I Met Your Mother"
TV Theme songs I love:
- Saved By the Bell
- Big Bang Theory
- CSI (all of them)
- Fresh Prince of Bel Aire
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
1)Killing Me Softly-Lauren Hill and the Fugees
2)I Love Rock n Roll-Joan Jett
3)Workin' for a Livin'-Huey Lewis and the News
4)Lady-Little River Band
5)Harden My Heart-Quarterflash
6)Stand In the Rain-Superchick
7)In the Light-DC Talk
8)I'm Not Ready to Make Nice-Dixie Chicks
10)Evil Angel-Breaking Benjamin
11)Live Your Life-T.I. featuring Rihanna
13)All Mixed Up-311
17)Whatever you Like-T.I.
23)Volcano Girls-Veruca Salt
25)Givin' Him Something He Can Feel-En Vogue
27) Fade Into You-Mazzy Starr
28)Fire and Ice-Enya
29)Ram Jam-Black Betty
30)My oh My- The Wreckers
So, there ya have it... I have no excuses. I like what I like. I'm all over the place and not a bit ashamed.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
What I didn't see coming(though my boyfriend totally did), is how he would dump the poor girl and change his mind. WOW! Well, i wish them all the best...
So, as I start my day today, I leave you with this... maybe pain and heartbreak are endured to make us stronger. I have to believe this, or else the world is just a cruel and unjust place.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Anyway, the moral of the story I guess is, being cooped up at home vs. going back to life as it was... I'll take a little more of each, please. Let me explain... Although it is good to be out, making money(much needed by the way after losing almost 9 weeks without pay due to recoveries), I really do wish I could have a little more at home time. It's this time that has introduced me to bloggers around the world, as well as Twitter(I'm a bit obsessed). So, I guess what I'm looking for is about 6 more hours in every day. That's my wish... to have 30 hours in a day. I'll get working on that and leave you with this: I just found out god is on twitter... It's about time he get with the program! hehe