Sunday, October 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
So, I'm apartment hunting and hoping to find something that won't break the bank, but that isn't a dump, either. I know-can't be done. But I'm trying to be optimistic.
Another bright note... it's finally stopped snowing after dumping 22 inches. As soon as my car is back in one piece, I just hope I won't get stuck. Plows are working hard, so should be a-ok by that time.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
So, anyway, I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop, right? I think it may soon. You see, I moved in with my boyfriend after knowing him only a month because we were so sure we were meant to be, and I didn't have money to get my own place and he wanted to take care of me. Things have changed a bit... due to my latest surgery, he saw a darker side of me as I took some of my pain out on him. It wasn't intentional... he was just the punching bag in front of me at the time. I was just basically bitching about the pain, but he took it as bitching at him. We really haven't been the same since.
No matter how many times I say "I'm sorry for taking it out on you" he just can't seem to forget about it. Like his image of me as the "loving girlfriend" has been tainted. I wish I knew how I could change this image in his mind. So frustrating thinking back on what we had and wondering if we'll ever find the same again. I just wanna rewind. If I had a clicker to just fast forward the past 6 weeks like it never happened and we could be exactly the same as before, I know we'd be that happy couple I remember.
So, if anyone has a magic clicker or a time machine out there, I'd love to talk! If not, I guess I'm just gonna have to deal.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Anyway, back to this mood I'm in. I feel kinda out of sorts lately. I have this wonderful guy who loves me and whom I love, I'm almost done with my very amicable divorce, I have a wonderful family who supports me, and I'm healing nicely from my latest back surgery. But there's just something I can't put my finger on... Maybe I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Things are just too good... It's inevitable for me to have something not right. Or, maybe I'm just imagining things... Maybe next week I'll figure it out, but for now, I'm gonna go out and celebrate the fact that my life is finally taking a turn for the better. I am still on a few good drugs, after all. Paranoia is a funny thing.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
It hurts my heart. I absolutely love this band! The lead singer has a voice to die for, but if they drown him out, what's left? So sad. It was the first time I've ever left a concert early. Only one other time have I been this disappointed after a live show... "Garbage", a band I loved in the 90s. They almost ruined concerts all together for me. I have a feeling I'll be weary in the future to see another beloved band. Too bad a few bad eggs can ruin the bunch.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna stop listening to the albums, but a little respect is lost. If you've never heard these bands check out their pages. http://halestormrocks.com/ , http://www.shinedown.com/ , http://islandrecords.com/site/artist_home.php?artist_id=301
I am glad to say that I got to meet Lizzy Hale, lead singer/guitarist for "HaleStorm" (this chick can wail) and she was so genuine and happy to meet every fan. It's these bands that make the concert experience so great! I really look forward to the day they make it big and truely believe they will!
Monday, March 16, 2009
You'd think I'd be more organized with my keepsakes, working in a photo/scrap booking shop and all. But I find little things all over that I intended to scrapbook so many times, and never found the time(or never pulled my butt away from the TV/computer screen long enough) to do.
I do hope this time I can do it right. I'm impressed already, at how I've labled boxes and done pretty well so far, but I know as I get down to the last boxes it's all gonna go out the window so I can get back to my TV/computer time. Who am I kidding... I'm a lost cause.